♥ Take a breath

2011-11-17T08:18:00.001-08:00

2011-11-12T05:09:00.001-08:00

Tell me what to do to get you back into my life.

2011-07-17T21:50:00.000-07:00

Have A Little Faith In Me.

2011-06-13T10:48:00.000-07:00

My Greatest Wish

2011-06-03T08:58:00.001-07:00

Your death.

Hmm

2011-06-02T18:23:00.001-07:00

For all who are still reading this blog,

It's gonna be dead for awhile cause there's no way I can ever blog like before,

at least for now.

Hmm,

2011-05-10T10:00:00.000-07:00

I'm not a child anymore

2011-05-07T06:04:00.000-07:00

So I can't pretend that nothing happened when you come home the next day, acting nice to me and all. I'm so sick of you screaming and I hate it that you feel like you own the whole world and you can do and say whatever you want. I used to think how I would prove you wrong when I grow up and start working, but now, I can't wait to grow up to leave you all alone while I take care of those who care. I can't study at home cause your presence maks me so sick. That's why I hate coming home early. You've caused so much unhappiness in our lives. I'm glad that my sister's getting married, at least she's gonna be free from you. You are such an asshole and I hate you so much, so very much.

Trust me, I'll never forget whatever you've said for the rest of my life cause that night changed a lot of things.

Shit happens and people change

2011-04-08T10:13:00.000-07:00

I think I'm starting to change that I'm forgetting who i used to be. Or maybe this is just me but I've been trying to cover it up with another life. Idk. Shit happens and they make you think and choose. I know it's not right but can I just take a break? I'm loving the things I'm doing now but wait, I honestly think that there's nothing wrong. It's just that, everyone expects me to be good like how people like me are supposed to be. Wait, I'm good, just not an angel. But I don't wanna be an angel and quit with the Mother Mary shit cause I know I'm not one and I will never ever be one. I'm such a disappointment, haha, believe me, I know that. I have a feeling that I might give up on myself. This is insane, what am I typing? I guess that night got me thinking about a lot but sometimes, I hate who I am now, I hate that there's something missing in my life and that I'm choosing to ignore it, at least for now. SOS. No, no sos, I don't want anyone telling me how I should lead my life cause I have to, cause it's what I'm supposed to do or whatever. I mean, I appreciate that people are taking time out to spend with me, really. I just gotta settle it on my own. It's hard, really. To those who have chosen to judge and give up on me, screw them, really. I don't need such people in my life.

The Wonder Years

2011-03-17T09:08:00.000-07:00

"Some people pass through your life and you never think about them again. Some you think about and wonder what ever happened to them. Some you wonder if they ever wonder what happened to you. And then there are some you wish you never had to think about again. But you do."

I smell freedom,

2011-03-04T09:01:00.000-08:00

Do you? ^^

Right after my last paper, my life felt so aimless in the instance! But thennnn, I made my way to Vivo to get my Korean book, YES, I'M GONNA MASTER KOREAN DURING THIS HOL(: I really do hope that I persist on, especially since I paid 60bucks out of my own pocket for it!

I have tons of things I wanna do! Havn't gotten the time to do up a list but as for now, here're some things I wanna do during the hol -

1. Master Korean! Okay, at least I must try my best to read it everyday!

2. Pack the house! Renovation starts on this coming Monday! Gotta start packing tomorrow since I'll be away for BAOC Group 7 camp from 7th-10th! Think the house's gonna be super dusty when I come home on Thurs!

3. Go for Driving Lessons. Yes yes, people, I know I've been dragging this but Dplus & CCAs ate my time away! I'm determined this time round!

4. Lose weight. AHHH, I'm full of fats now. I wasn't as concerned last time, but my Business Pants told me that I've gotta shed some weight): BUT BUT BUT, Food is my life. Sigh, you have no idea how fat I felt when I wore that pair of pants which was once lose! I have a goal and I'm gonna start working on it after camp! Watch me(:

5. ISOW2 & Children's Camp prep! I'm gonna start on my Bible Reading again and watch Left Behind with my ISOW2 mate, Belly^^ Gotta start planning for Children's Camp before I get too busy when school reopens!

6. Self Source for Internship! Oh God, please give me a path? (:

7. Find a job? That's the least of my priorities but a little more pocket money would be great!(: Maybe I'll work a few days/week during the hols. I do hope violet needs some helpers!

Hmm, that's all for now, FOR NOW(:

I can't wait to get started! Wanna make full use of my hols instead of sleeping my days away(:

The week has been really hectic, but it was filled with experiences with God. I wouldn't have done it without Him and truly, He hears me when I call♥

Goodbye

2011-02-27T05:49:00.001-08:00

Goodbye Taylor Swift, I used to love you so much BUT, I'm over you.

Taylor swift's songs are super niceeeee, but I'm forcing myself to not listen to any of her songs anymore cause she's satanic. I quote, "Nice is nice, it's another thing to be a good testimony" AND SO, ); sobbbbb, goodbye):

So anyway, I've found a new love- Bieber♥

Heeee, Okay, so I've not been staying home for the past week, I've been studying out overnight. Yknow, it's tiring enough that I have to stay out to study, I'm not exactly enjoying my time and if I could, I'd rather stay home. So please God, stop those crap.

Because of you, I've been questioning about my existence. Honestly, I feel like a burden to the family. I wish I was older, maybe my parents could have an early retirement. Maybe I would have felt better if I didn't know that I was an accident, unwanted right from the start.

Back to December

2011-02-12T08:30:00.000-08:00

I'm so glad you made time to see me
How's life? Tell me, how's your family?
I haven't seen them in a while

You've been good, busier than ever
We small talk, work and the weather
Your guard is up, and I know why

Because the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind
You gave me roses, and I left them there to die

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December all the time

These days, I haven't been sleeping
Staying up, playing back myself leaving
When your birthday passed, and I didn't call

Then I think about summer, all the beautiful times
I watched you laughing from the passenger side
And realized I loved you in the fall

And then the cold came, the dark days
When fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love, and all I gave you was goodbye

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time

I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile
So good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night
The first time you ever saw me cry

Maybe this is wishful thinking
Probably mindless dreaming
But if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right

I'd go back in time and change it, but I can't
So if the chain is on your door, I understand

This is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time, all the time

We've gotta live like we're dying

2011-02-11T09:18:00.000-08:00

Everyone knows that the world is ending but we don't know when.

"For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God"

- Eph 2:8

I know that I'm going to heaven for sure, I've never doubted that fact but I'm not prepared to see God. I have so much more I wanna do for Him, so many more lives to touch. I'd love to see Him, but I wanna see Him when I can proudly tell Him that I've led a life worthy to be called a child of His.

God has been speaking through prayers, His word and people around me. I'm sure that everything happens for a reason. God didn't send people into my life without a reason, especially for fellow Christians, I'm sure He has a message for me behind those conversations I've had with them. One message has been standing out & I'm just gonna obey.

The world is ending and what'll happen to those who doesn't even know about God. I'm privileged to be saved because I know God. I think it's time to grab every opportunity to tell people about God and to continue to live my life as a testimony.

It's hard to spend more time with God when studies gets in the way, it's hard to be a testimony when the ways of the world are so tempting but I'm gonna look at the things that are eternal, not temporal(:

What's your purpose in life?

I thought about it and it's really about living a life worthy to be called a child of God, I wanna touch lives for Him(:

I'm running out of time, I'm gonna live like I'm dying.

Where are you now?

2011-02-06T18:14:00.000-08:00

ODJ, Today.

2011-01-31T22:01:00.000-08:00

Just yesterday, I was on the train with xin & she was telling me why and how Rach's her best friend. I wondered how I missed my best friend. Or rather, who used to be, used to be. The two words- Best Friend, rang in my mind & I thought about many things, again.

So today, my finger slided and clicked on the ODJ tab. The title was, "God's Friend" and at the end of the passage, it said, "Your very best friend is Jesus. Even if others let you down, He will be “with you always" .

Matthew 28:20

Teach these new disciples to obey all the commands I have given to you. And be sure that I am with you always, even till the end of the age.

Everything's pretty much messed up now but still, I know what I have.

Blessed Assurance, Jesus is mine.

This week

2011-01-30T09:20:00.000-08:00

This week has been really bad. I can't believe everything that has happened, one after another. Some people, issues and memories just wouldn't stop haunting me. The only comfort I get is from God and it's true that the things of earth will grow strangely dim in the light of His glory and grace. But when I see certain people, when I receive certain texts, when I dream of certain dreams, I'm back to planet earth with people and their big fake smile & stupid lies.

If only I could turn back time. I'd rather be a loner all on my own.

Tell me,

2011-01-27T09:02:00.000-08:00

Who is to blame when One is apart from six?

Who is to blame when that One fell sick for 2 weeks?

Who is to blame when no one bothered to fill that one in?

Who is to blame when no one listened?

Who is to blame when that One lost hope in the six?

Who is to blame when that One got disappointed with the six?

Who is to blame when no one saw how hard that One was trying?

Who is to blame when that One lost all passion because of the six?

Who is to blame when no one knew exactly what happened?

Who is to blame when everyone puts the blame on that One?

Even though the blame's on you, I have to take the blame for you.

Everyone wants a piece of me

2011-01-23T07:33:00.000-08:00

Yeah, they do.

Where are you now?

2011-01-22T08:54:00.000-08:00

I know we'll never see those days again
And things will never be that way again
But that's just how it goes, People change but I know
I won't forget you

To the ones who came, who were there from the start
To the love that left and took a piece of my heart
To the few who'd swear they'd never go anywhere
Where are you now?

Where are you now? Cause I'm thinking of you.
You showed me how, how to live like I do
If it wasn't for you, I would never be how I am
If it wasn't for you, I would never be who I am
If it wasn't for you, I'd be nothing
Where are you now?

Some things I'll never know

2011-01-20T09:08:00.000-08:00

I guess I understand how you felt when you came out hugging her, telling her how much you miss me. Honestly, I'd rather not know cause I was trying to forget then. But ever since I knew about it, I often picture you in that state and think about whatever that has happened. Too many misunderstandings and yknow me, I don't explain when it's too much. It's all my fault. I still think of you at times, really. I almost texted you last night but thank God I didn't. I mean, what can you say? This whole cycle's just gonna repeat again right? It's a whole pathetic game. You're scared cause you don't know how to be a friend anymore & I don't believe in true friendship anymore. You look happy now, I hope you truly am. I'm sorry but I don't think a 'Hello' is even possible when we see each other so when you see me, please, just walk away. I still cry when I see your prof, loser right, yeah. So please run away when you see me, don't let me see you. I thought I saw you at the interchange last night, my heart jumped, almost got a shock of my life. Yeah, so don't let me see you, it's quite easy to bump into each other huh? We're just a few bus stops away. If you ever board the same bus as me, don't stop to say hi and forgive me if I do the same. My mum and Ju used to ask about you, asked why I don't mention you anymore, why don't you come to my place anymore. But I guess they figured and stopped asking. My friends asked about you too, some still ask about you now. Does anyone ask you about me? What do you say?

I'm always saying that I'm fine, I thought I'd be fine but I don't think I really am. But I'll be, no one's indispensable right?

I just saw your prof one last time and our old convos one last time before deleting everything. I just realised that ppl delete not because they're petty or childish, it's because seeing and knowing hurts. So I'd rather not see and I'd rather not know.

You're gone, my sis may be gone soon, and people changed too quickly.

Yeah, some things I'll never know and I have to let them go.

I'll be a bug

2011-01-16T07:59:00.001-08:00

There'll be a point when you realise that you have too many groups of friends that you find it too hard to keep up with every single one of them. Some you may forget, and some, they forget you. But I guess it doesn't matter cause I've decided to hold onto those whom I know, are gonna be there for the rest of my life. They can take me at my worst and yeah, they do deserve my best then. For the rest of my life, Rest Of My Life, on earth and in Heaven, it ain't a dream we foolishly form, I know what I want, I'm bugging you guys for the Rest Of My Life.

Restrictions.

2011-01-15T10:48:00.001-08:00

It hurts to see how fellow Christians backslide, I've seen one after another. But there's also a limit to what we can do lest we appear to be too forceful hmm?

It's so easy to fall into the worldly traps, simply tempting. I was just thinking- What would I have been like if I weren't a Christian, if I didn't even come to to Angora, didn't meet Belly&All? Clubz, Tatts, Piercings, Drinks? Oh man, I don't even wanna imagine. I guess this is the reason why God restricts us in so many ways, it's a form of protection, yes? I know I'm not exactly the best testimony anyone can find out there but I'm tryinggg. I'm trying to cope with my anger, to have more patience and tolerance to those who are difficult to love. I'm REALLY trying and boy, it's REALLYYYYY hard. Some ppl can be a pain in your butt, no joke at all.

I guess it's all up to prayers for more patience. Chill Aud, it's okay, it's okay, it's okayyyy.

I'm happy, generally- caring, talking and spending time with those who matters.

It's still haunting me, really.

Blessed Assurance

2010-12-26T09:04:00.000-08:00

Life goes on

2010-12-22T06:16:00.000-08:00

It's an hour and forty three to my 19th,

I had an awesome 18th and I'm just gonna have a different kind of awesomeness from now on.

Cause some things are meant to last forever & some are just, not.

2010-12-18T05:59:00.000-08:00

I'm trying not to think about you

2010-12-16T09:44:00.000-08:00

Why can't you just let me be?

I'm gonna blog tmr(:

Hmm

2010-12-06T21:31:00.000-08:00

Nigel's text this morning says -

"Therefore take up the armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand- Eph 6:13"

ODJ this morning says -

"23 Again I say, don’t get involved in foolish, ignorant arguments that only start fights. 24 A servant of the Lord must not quarrel but must be kind to everyone, be able to teach, and be patient with difficult people. 25 Gently instruct those who oppose the truth. Perhaps God will change those people’s hearts, and they will learn the truth. 26 Then they will come to their senses and escape from the devil’s trap. For they have been held captive by him to do whatever he wants- 2 Tim 2:23-26"

"The Scripture describes the devil as one who works to ensnare all of God’s people and all of God’s creation."

Hmm.

Message from God

2010-11-28T17:52:00.000-08:00

I just started this app on FB and apparently, it tells me what God wanna say to me daily. HAHA. So Belly said that it's not accurate cause it's like a daily horocope reading and she refuses to use it, HAHA. Told her that it's just for fun and who knows, it MIGHT help one day(: Yknow, the messages they give are really vague so I guess it's good in a way cause those who believe in it can definitely work their way into getting a learning point, realization, a message from God.

I think life will be different from now on and I'll have to adapt to it, somehow. It's better for her this way.

WATCH ME.

2010-11-27T08:31:00.000-08:00

Okay, so I've not really caught up with my studies yet and I'm very unsure about many things. BUT WATCH ME, imma gonna get those dark circles next week and ace those papers(:

SOO, kiss fb and twitter goodbye.

Expect the Unexpected

2010-11-25T01:31:00.000-08:00

You know how they say that trust is the most fundamental thing that must exist in any kind of relationship? I guess there are people in life you've trusted and there are moments when you blame yourself for trusting them. As many times as you tell yourself how stupid you were and to be careful with whom you trust in future, you find yourself falling into the same trap again.

There are a few ways of trusting people. One way is through sharing with them your struggles, believing that it’ll remain a secret, that they’ll always be there to make sure that these problems are resolved, that they will support you even when the everyone is standing on the other line. You wouldn’t expect them to use the information against you, you would never expect them to stand on the same line as those who least understand you. Well, expect the unexpected.

Another way we trust someone is by believing in their values; values which have made you respect the person for who he or she is. As you look at the person as your role model, someone whom you have always looked up to, you wouldn’t expect their values to change, you wouldn’t expect them to drop from your highest list to the average list and you wouldn’t expect yourself to go, sigh. Well, expect the unexpected.

You can find yourself trusting someone by just believing in them, by believing whatever they say. You listen to their struggles and guide them, trusting their words that they would really want to change. Even as they fail, you tell yourself that it’s just human to fail and you cast aside your disappointment and tell yourself that you’ll still be there if they need you, that you’ll still listen if they need to share, that you’ll still do your best to help them in whatever way you can. You would never expect them to fail you over and over again, you would never expect them to give up on themselves and you would never expect them to create excuses to justify their acts. Well, expect the unexpected.

Someone once told me that he looks at everyone and place them up high in his rating scale. It is what they do which makes him place rate them lower and lower in the scale. He said that I am entirely different from him. I look at everyone and place them down low in my rating scale. They would work their way up the scale by proving their worth through their actions. This structure made a little sense but I told him that it’s a way to protect myself from trusting people too easily.

Well, I guess I have either pushed the wrong people up the scale or I’ve not been following my structure too closely. Now I blame myself for attempting to change the structure. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not judging by rating them, for who am I to judge? I’m just trying to remember who I should or should not trust. You know how past experiences can make you a little cranky at times?

Maybe I shouldn’t even have expectations on someone too easily. I expected someone to always be my role model, I expected someone to be who they portray him/herself to be, I expected someone to mean what they say, I expected someone to stand by me and I expected someone to stay strong and persist in what he wants to change. Well, Expect the Unexpected, this is planet Earth and humans can be so scary at times.

Wise up.

Make A Certain Breakthrough

2010-11-21T05:50:00.000-08:00

In my life of searching for the plain and simple way,

Many paths were so winding, the roads were never straight.

Then the Spirit of God of God broke through

And healed my broken wings,

And showed me the way into His heart.

And I know that God is leading in a clear and certain way.

My one life for your purpose, Jesus,

I offer up this day.

To follow You completely, to do all that You say.

Cleanse my life, fill me up and use me this day.

Make a certain breakthrough, make it today.

In these days of danger,

Lord, we rest upon Your grace.

With your tender and skilful hands, You shaped this stubborn clay.

Yes, You calm my inmost being, giving courage to hope again,

And to build this one life in power and faith.

Kindness

2010-11-20T05:23:00.000-08:00

My brother bought me 4 ikea hotdog bread(:

My brother's really nice to me, I know. He really has a kind heart & my sister's Mother Teresa. I'm really kind tooooo, only to people whom I choose. Okay, so that's not exactly how kindness should be. I think kindness is somewhat genetic and of course, it's a matter of choice as well. I'm gonna pray for for this fruit of the Spirit, to love people regardless of what they do(: Hee.

Let Go & Let God

2010-11-19T11:01:00.000-08:00

Yeah, sometimes, it's true that it's good when things are not going smoothly in your life cause that's when we rely fully on God's strength and not our own. I have 3 issues bugging me now but I guess I'm just gonna let go and let God. That's all I can do and I guess that's what He would want me to do. I really do thank God for sending the right people at the right time to talk to me about the different issues I'm struggling with.

On the way back from CG, I felt really blessed to have such Christian friends from church. There may be times when we don't communicate much when we got really busy with our school and our own lives but we know we can always count on each other . I guess because we have a common goal and purpose of existing, we are the only ones who can understand the spiritual struggles each other is facing and offer views which are different from what the world thinks. I'm loving it(:

So anyway, Tiny and I are gonna start reading the Bible, attempting to complete reading it but I think it'll take a long time cause it's just one chapter a day for now! Hah. May have worship session once a week too, hopefully! :D

Alright, since I've decided to Let Go & Let God, no more ): At least I'll try(:

Renew the lamp of my first love,
That burned with Holy fear.

♥

2010-11-17T10:11:00.000-08:00

Something I got from my tumblr(:

Okay, Went for picnic today(: HEE HEE. With Germs, Mervyn, Max, TinyLim, Tiong and Keith♥

Loved how we sat around, chilled with the guitar, singing songs and playing games. Wasn't anything elaborate but we enjoyed each other's company(:

Though Tumblr's a lot, A LOT more addictive, I refuse to give up on this blog. HAHA! I prefer a mix of old & new school(:

School tmr, I'm still screwed.

My Blog Is Dead

2010-11-16T08:28:00.000-08:00

Omg, my blog IS dead. HAHA! I'm gonna start blogging soon.

Okay, just a brief summary FOR NOW.

1) I went to China and many, MANY things happened.

2) I have pink highlights & I'm loving it.

3) I was on MC for 2 weeks after 1 week of school.

4) Right now, I'm struggling to catch up with my studies.

5) I need to pray for my ministry involvement next year.

6) Mervyn's Birthday!

7) I love Germs.

8) More ECs, oh so cute.

9) I'm fat, I'm broke but I want more clothes.

10) I miss Nana.

Till next time!

KEITH, If you're reading this, YOU FOUND IT! (y) Good job(:

2010-08-22T10:43:00.000-07:00

"Two things I ask from You, O Lord; do not refuse me before I die: Keep falsehood and lies far from me; give me neither poverty nor riches, but give me only my daily bread. Otherwise, I may have too much and disown You and say, 'Who is the Lord?' Or I may become poor and steal, and so dishonour the name of my God." - Proverbs 30:8,9

Will things get better?

2010-08-06T03:28:00.000-07:00

Projects and all are finally over, that's the end of all those bad thoughts of feeling unjust and being taken advantage of. Seriously, no guy will ever treat me like this and all my friends who knows about all these would kill if they could. Who says that I have bad PR? Honestly, they would beg to differ. I guess I act differently to different people and I believe that nice people get nice treatment. I can read people pretty well and I've seen through quite a few people. Some nice, some not. For one, nice people don't take their friends for granted, they don't threaten, they don't raise their voice, they don't scold for the sake of doing so. I've been a fool for quite some time. But I'm glad that I've seen all these, my experience will definitely be a warning to others.

The only happy thing in my life now is the Koisters. Like I've said, I've seen through quite a few people and nice people are found here♥

All these time, despite my avoidance, God has been finding ways to speak to me. I decided to read a short writeup on the bus one day. It spoke quite a bit and I really need to find the time to think about some stuff.

A second of reality.

2010-07-26T21:34:00.000-07:00

Nothing really happened. I guess it changed over time.

They just couldn't handle both at the same time.

I didn't change, maybe I had lesser time on hand with my increasing commitments but I still knew who were the most important to me. I didn't need I told you sos or lectures from the wrong decisions I know I've made and that's why I chose to keep certain things to myself.

I didn't change, maybe the thing that has changed is the way I'm being viewed. My flaws were never an issue but it seems like they are now. I don't know what happened and I've tried not to think about it. After all, I just have to survive this bad and sore feeling for just 2 days a week, a couple of hours each time.

But it's sad to realise that I'll only have one number to call instantly to share my sadness and joy, to share my grades. At least, for now, I'll only have one number to call to scream and whine, one number to call for suppers and one number to call for support.

Who's gonna remember my exam dates? W ho's gonna text me to encourage? Who's gonna hear me bitch? Who's gonna think of me and worry?

Just don't ask, cause I don't even know why.

Breathe.

2010-07-17T09:58:00.000-07:00

The Bazaar was okay! USUALS' guys and Babies came down to support us! :DDD Love them ttm.

DianaTan, Terence and Belly came too! They spent money money on the stall and my lunch to support too! Heart pain for them pls, there were super ex! Thanksss!

Suffered a loss but it's okay, I guess.

I MADE A NEW FRIEND! HAHA! THAT'S THE REAL CHUNKY MASTER EH. Prince and guys were so jealous of his build pls. HAHA!

Thank you WenXin and Xinyi, for being there♥

Time for bed.

I feel so restricted here.

Plastic.

2010-07-15T20:34:00.000-07:00

I'm so addicted to baking and that's a really bad sign. My hands get itchy during free time and I replace studying with baking. Tsk.

I screwed up my CMA test 2 and I did my baking therapy.

Bazaar't tmr, ECD paper's on Wednesday, I have EBA to deal with. Everyone's dying. I guess the reason why I'm not feeling as scared is because I've given up on my projects. I know that an A would be hard to achieve cause I'm not getting any support.

I hate being taken advantage of. Everything I do is being taken for granted and everyone just assumes that I'll do everything. Is that why they're not doing anything? Not asking about the progress? Not trying? I'm not a superwoman and being people with dicks, you act like you don't own one. I'm really not some all-rounded freak and I have so much more commitments than any of you. Why do I get all these work? I've been trying to avoid this feelings for so long and right now, I just wanna get my ass to Shanghai cause I know that once I'm back, it'll be the end of all these torment.

I need to bake.

I made a promise

2010-07-04T21:15:00.000-07:00

Amath Test was on Friday. It was pretty easy for most ppl I guess, but hard for me. I'm not a math person and Nana almost died teaching me. She was really nice to come down for 3 days till 11plus 12 just to tutor me, she's the bombz♥.

I'm still thinking of my As from Common Test. I guess God has granted me such grades to serve as an encouragement to others. All I want to say is that I honestly couldn't have done it on my own wisdom and hard work, and it was all because of God's faithfulness and kindness towards me. I trusted and chose to serve Him in my busyness and He has not failed me. And so, I'll share this story as a testimony(:

I went for Aztecs Outing on Saturday after CG:D I had a great time with those awesome peeps even though it was just a really small group! I lied about something stupid and everyone actually believed it, hee hee. But as I was on the way home, I thought about tha lie. Even though it was just for the sake of fun, I felt really guilty after that. I've always wanted to be a living testimony but lying isn't helping. And on that night, I promised God that I'll never lie again. It was a promise to God. I questioned about white lie but I told God that I'll try really hard to keep this promise I've made.

I honestly feel like writing '30 Days, 30 Letters'. Not really sure if I wanna post everything on this blog. Alright, I'll definitely write it:D Either on hardcopy ( I LOVE WRITING), blog or tumblr!:D Not everything is meant for everybody. Heehee.

30 Days, 30 Letters.

2010-06-29T23:26:00.000-07:00

Every day for thirty days, write a letter to the someone mentioned in the list. As simple as that.

Your Best Friend
Your Crush
Your parents
Your sibling (or closest relative)
Your dreams
A stranger
Your lover
Your favourite internet friend
Someone you wish you could meet
Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Someone you wish could forgive you
Someone you’ve drifted away from
The person you miss the most
Someone that’s not in your state/country
Someone from your childhood
The person that you wish you could be
Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
The one that broke your heart the hardest
Someone you judged by their first impression
Someone you want to give a second chance to
The last person you kissed
The person that gave you your favorite memory
The person you know that is going through the worst of times
The last person you made a pinky promise to
The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Someone that changed your life
The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Your reflection in the mirror

Oh well.

2010-06-29T03:56:00.000-07:00

Celebrated Jess' Bday after Church last Sunday:D

Had Every with Fries, Cherry Brandy from Daily Scoop and Starbucks!(:

Hee hee, somebody's in loveeeeeeeeeee!

(Y) for you!♥♥♥

I had Koi(: Twiceeee! Once on Sunday and the other just this morning! My sister bought for me last night. Koi is seriously my new addiction and it'll definitely cheer me up ANYTIMEEEE. Love it.

Got back a few results. Comparison really kills but I still have to give thanks to God knowing that I would have done worse without His help. Yup, I just have to learn to be Satisfied.

Projects are almost done and I can't wait for Shanghai to come. Everything will get better after this.

I actually kinda enjoy class with those idiots:D Of course, let's minus the part regarding projects. Still, Funny moments are never ending and I laughed a little today so that's not too bad.

I still feel sore about it.

Hmm.

2010-06-24T06:53:00.000-07:00

It’s the first day of school! Uhm hmm. But I’m just gonna blog about what happened during the Hols. It’s wayyyyy overdue:D

First up! Common Test week was one week before the hols and I had Children’s Camp as well. It was definitely tiring, having to travel from home to church, church to school, school to church and church to home. I didn’t really have the time to study as much but I really have to thank God for his providence.

He has provided Belly to be in the team and because of that, she was always around to remind me of the things that we needed to do and for leading the singspirations. I know that it wasn’t easy for her cause it was her first time doing it with two little Boyssss. I felt really apologetic cause I was quite reliant on her. Not only do I have to thank God for her but also for giving her the courage, comfort and the right words as she led. Know that she acknowledges that too:DDD Heeee.

Also also! My little boys have grown! I remember teaching them when they were younger and now it’s their turn to serve and lead the younger kids(: Francis has been a joy to the team, always up to his stupid crappy dance! His videos are in my laptop but it’ll prolly take foreverrrr to load them on Fb. Guess I’m just gonna keep them for a little longer and post them to remind the boys in future(: Nat, hee hee, I was actually happy when he gave me a stupid and ‘you are so lame’ expression-.- It actually shows that he’s opening up to us quite a bit! You know, though the songs weren’t as great as previous years or the finale night didn’t work out as well as we wanted it to, I really thank God for this experience in working with a while lot of newbies in the Music Centre and I can say that I didn’t regret serving in this Children’s Camp despite the rush and busyness due to the CTs.

I texted Belly and Goli one night before my first CT paper and told them that I was really scared and that even though I’ve been praying and all, I couldn’t feel peaceful. So Belly texted me a verse,

Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid. -John 14:27

It was prolly the first time I felt so at ease and in peace when I stepped into the exam hall. You see, I’m not someone who can take things easily and I’m really serious when it comes to my studies. Uhh hmm, SOME OF YOU WOULD KNOW WHAT I MEAN! Haha! But yes, I felt peaceful(: I prayed really hard and God has given me the strength that I needed to sustain me throughout that CT week! HAHA! I fell sick right after that, on the last day of camp! The amazing thing is, I miraculously recovered on Sunday for camp reunion and found the energy and voice to sing and dance and went home sick again. AHAHA! I was actually a little happy that I fell sick cause God has shown me that he’s working in my life.

I’d really hate it if I were to receive and forget.

Alright! Some pictures from Children’s Camp!

Music Centre:DDD

OMG, I wanna be a kid again): I loveeee this boy ttm!

They're all related please! What genes they have laaaa! Omg, I love this new boy at the right hand corner(:

More at Fb!

The first week of Hols was right after Children’s Camp and on Monday, the Excos met for our preparations for Envoys Orientation Camp 2010:D Stayed over on Tuesday and Wednesday and the Camp started on Thursday(:

I really love my Babies(: Hee hee. I’m glad that I had the time to spend with my group for the first day and time with the other groups on the last night! We have a Wolf Gang now(: Haha, obviously I had to forgo some rest and sleep but it was all worth it(: Did I mention that I had to scrub my Canvas sheets alone in the morning from 3plus to 6 plus in the morning? -.- Hur. Tiringggg.

I know that the camp wasn’t fun throughout the whole three days and there’re many many improvements that we have to make! But my Babies were really sweet. They kept telling me that they really enjoyed themselves and that it was great when I asked for feedbacks! Aww.

Alright, picturesssss.

OMG, LOVE HIS HAIR! HE DOESN'T NEED TO USE HAIRWAX AT ALL. Amazing shampooooo.

OMG, MERVYN! (:

Time for Old School(:

Gay ttm!

OMG, EDWINNNNNNNNNN! HAHA! He's so cute pls, just look at the way he sleeps!

That's my Wolf Gang♥

AHHH, PUVIN! HAHAHA! Yes, beg me.

Many people don’t know what’s happening behind the scene and they can never understand what we’re going through. Even though I’m hearing a lot of things, I can say that I’ve completed my duties and I don’t regret spending time with them. Just because I see things differently and have a different priority doesn’t mean that it’s wrong. I’ve been disappointed and I’ve learnt quite a few things. Most importantly, I just wanna say thank you Puvin, for being the best black guy ever. Hah. But yes, thank you for being the only one who understood and the only one who dared to stand up for me even when I didn’t explain anything back then. Appreciate that.

Alright, School time, just crashed Hannah's Lecture, joke. HAHA!

♥

2010-06-21T09:02:00.000-07:00

My last post was up on 1st June and it has been about 3 weeks since I've updated!

Yes, I've been Blessed and back.

It has been pretty hectic, and I have to admit that I'm lost again.

I need some Solitude.

Updates tmr!

Watch this page.

♥

Psalm 33

2010-06-01T03:50:00.000-07:00

1 Let the godly sing for joy to the Lord;

it is fitting for the pure to praise him.

2 Praise the Lord with melodies on the lyre;

make music for him on the ten-stringed harp.

3 Sing a new song of praise to him;

play skillfully on the harp, and sing with joy.

4 For the word of the Lord holds true,

and we can trust everything he does.

5 He loves whatever is just and good;

the unfailing love of the Lord fills the earth.

6 The Lord merely spoke,

and the heavens were created.

He breathed the word,

and all the stars were born.

7 He assigned the sea its boundaries

and locked the oceans in vast reservoirs.

8 Let the whole world fear the Lord,

and let everyone stand in awe of him.

9 For when he spoke, the world began!

It appeared at his command.

10 The Lord frustrates the plans of the nations

and thwarts all their schemes.

11 But the Lord’s plans stand firm forever;

his intentions can never be shaken.

12 What joy for the nation whose God is the Lord,

whose people he has chosen as his inheritance.

13 The Lord looks down from heaven

and sees the whole human race.

14 From his throne he observes

all who live on the earth.

15 He made their hearts,

so he understands everything they do.

16 The best-equipped army cannot save a king,

nor is great strength enough to save a warrior.

17 Don’t count on your warhorse to give you victory—

for all its strength, it cannot save you.

18 But the Lord watches over those who fear him,

those who rely on his unfailing love.

19 He rescues them from death

and keeps them alive in times of famine.

20 We put our hope in the Lord.

He is our help and our shield.

21 In him our hearts rejoice,

for we trust in his holy name.

22 Let your unfailing love surround us, Lord,

for our hope is in you alone.

I'm keeping my eyes on Jesus

2010-05-30T23:32:00.000-07:00

Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you.

I do not give to you as the world gives.

Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.

- John 14:17

In my anguish I cried to the LORD,

and he answered by setting me free.

The LORD is with me; I will not be afraid.

What can man do to me?

The LORD is with me; he is my helper.

I will look in triumph on my enemies.

- Psalm 118: 5-7

2010-05-25T22:51:00.001-07:00

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No One Else Can Love Me

2010-05-24T05:38:00.000-07:00

I know that You are near, I can sense Your presence here,

And no one else can love me like You, Jesus.

You're my Saviour and my Friend

And on You, I can depend.

Cause no one else can love me like You do.

Wrap Your arms around me, Lord.

Hold me closely to Your heart and

Feed my Spirit by Your word,

I will never ever fall.

For I know if I get weary, I can always lean on You.

For there's no one else can love me like You do.

I know that You can see all the sins inside of me.

But that won't stop You loving me, Lord Jesus.

So my faith in You is sure and Your Spirit makes me pure.

Cause no one else can love me like You do.

When my work is done and my race on earth is run.

I'll close my eyes and call to You, my Jesus.

And those arms that held me close all my life will take me home.

Cause no one else can love me like You do.

Me and My Best Friend♥

2010-05-21T21:04:00.000-07:00

Nana came over to NP the other day! ♥

I was so happy that she could finally visit my sch pls, after one whole AY! I wanna visit TP next week too! E-learning week!(: Brought her to Makan Place and it was her first time eating Yong Tau Foo! Nana liked the chicken-mayo sandwich at the Atrium too! Gonna buy them for her if I meet her from school the next time(:

Took some shots at the Atrium! It was so retarded, HAH!

I LOVE THIS PICTURE!(:

Went to Goh Keng Swee's homage before meeting Nana at town! Shopped at Ion and we almost didn't have time to have dinner cause most of the shops were closing by the time we finished shopping! HAH! Walked to Cine and we has Korean BBQ Chicken for dinner! I likeeeee(: That's gonna be my new favourite dining place:D

Ad came over to find us and we headed to Hortpark! But it was really late and the security guard chased us away): And soooooooooo, we decided to camwhore on the bridge!(:

NANA! HAHA!

HAHAHAHA!

♥

Life can be good

2010-05-18T04:01:00.000-07:00

Yup, it can and it really depends on how you make life worth the living.

And yes, I've decided that I like being odd.

So I've been pretty busy and I'll get even busier soon. My To-do List is getting long and longer and my organiser is filled with so many appointments.

Children's camp is coming and we're only half done with the songs D: That means more meeting up during the weekdays and long hours over the week end for more dancing and singing! But, I do love doing so cause it's a way I relieve some stress. This team is really awesome, yes, inexperienced but you can never stop laughing with those young ones, esp when we start bouncing excessively! HAHA!

Hmm, I've yet to catch up with my previous topics missed during the RD and projects are getting due. But it's okay, I'm doing better than the previous week(:

I need to meet the best friend soon! I wanna chill in town):

Philippians 4:6-7

2010-05-16T18:58:00.000-07:00

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

He can turn the tide

2010-05-11T23:16:00.000-07:00

Let's all pray for more patience and tolerance.

I'm just counting down the days and weeks:/

The Battle belongs to the Lord

2010-05-09T21:36:00.000-07:00

My Babies are born! All 114 of them! Okay, OUR Babies!♥

Heard from gay that there were quite a few number of people getting so excited over their acceptance into Envoys. Quite heartwarming(: We've been working on the Recruitment for weeks! Stayed over to settle the list of the accepted Babies' names from Thursday to Saturday and we slept so late every night! Even got sick because of Baby Mango, he kept sneezing! Thank God I've recovered(:

I'm feeling really stressed): Being a part of this new thing has taken up so much of my time and energy. Had to skip Dplus, fell sick and I'm lagging one week behind every single lecture & tutorial work. And the worst part is, I've so many projects and tasks to complete and I'm doing all four projects with a group of guys. They're okay and I really love them as my friends! But yknow, guys are more laid back and I have to keep rushing them. Well, at least I've worked things out with Marcus and have assigned the leading of projects between the two of us. Still stressed but at least God has provided something small to release my it, even though it's just by a little. I have children's camp and main camp coming up too): But yes, The Battle belongs to the Lord.

I thought I could manage but I realise that if I don't do something about this, I'll soon have a nervous breakdown. Perhaps I'm too competitive and too much of a perfectionist. I spend so much time on perfecting something, wanting things to turn out well and yet I can't lose out on my studies.

I was doing up my timetable yesterday and allocated time for the different week 3 lectures & tutorials, project work and envoys stuff. As I looked at my timetable, I realised there wasn't time allocated for the word, 'Quiet Time'. What a disappointment, I was disappointed with myself too. At such a time like this, I would need God with me but I've unknowingly put Him aside. Thank God I noticed that, point taken.

I'm really disgusted with the ways of the world.
My sister says that I should just kill myself, Hah.

:D ?

2010-05-07T05:36:00.000-07:00

It's so hard to comprehend my exact feelings cause it'll be inappropriate to do so. Right now, in my head, I can hear Lance saying, "That's the way of life, my friend". Oh gosh, now it's Prince's and Junwei's voice. That sentence just keeps ringing in my head.

♥

2010-05-06T01:32:00.000-07:00

I love these two pictures!:D

Meet Sister Tan....

and Brother Tan!:D

(:

2010-05-04T08:05:00.001-07:00

http://formspring.me/tameyourtongue

Stuck

2010-05-03T19:42:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was the first day of BA Envoys interview! It was kinda fun, taking on the role as an interviewer this time round. HAHA!:D

Was quite touched by a particular group of interviewees. Three of them were either a Christian or a Catholic and were all committed to attend church on every Saturday or Sunday. When asked to choose between a church service and an envoys event, they gave a definite yes to church. I clearly remember one guy who said something like, " I'm sorry but I'll definitely choose church over any Envoys event. God is very important in my life and it'll remain this way. He has been there to help me and going to church for Him is the least I can do." My heart melted. I've not seen such a committed Christian from poly for quite some time, he's probably the second one apart from Gay. The two others too! I rarely see such Christians anymore and I felt so touched as I could really identify with his feelings. Thing is, I shouldn't feel this way at all cause all Christians are supposed to behave and think this way, it should be expected. A pity how so many of us have fallen into the trap of the worldly desires. Makes me kinda sad at times. Non-Christians don't disappoint me, Christians do.

Every time I try to move on, the past just can't let me go. I've been leading quite an enjoyable life in poly, starting afresh and trying to be a better testimony for Christ. So one year has passed and now, it seems as though everything is coming back. I'm gonna say it again- Firstly, there is no rumour to spread cause everything that happened between you two were true. Secondly, I have no friends in that particular poly and how could have done what you think I did? Thirdly, I DIDN'T DO IT. I've passed that stage of doing such stupid things but it seems like you havn't. Everything came as a shock and I don't think I'm willing to bare the consequences you're facing for that grave sin that you two have committed. I don't know what you are facing in your school but I have nothing to do with it. I shouldn't be someone you can push the blame to so that you can feel better just because I know things and because you've failed me before.

Amazingly, I took it as something ridiculous and silly when I heard about it. Perhaps I would get really angry and get to the bottom of things if I were to be living in stc days. But now, I'm just going to let this pass. Well, if I do the right thing that pleases God, I'll please the right men. Soooooo, whatever those comments may be, my true friends wouldn't think that way about me. I'm just upset about how it seem as though I'm still stuck at the same spot because of the people in the past.

Okay, perhaps I should really draw the line clearly between the past and present. Nana's really good enough.

And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
-Philippians 4:7

Oh God,

2010-04-25T08:28:00.000-07:00

I'm soooooooooooo EXCITED! New classmates with a whole bunch of guys and first day of Envoys Recruitment drive! This week's gonna be busy busy busy! Envoys Recruitment Drive from Monday to Wednesday, Dplus & prolly training on Tuesday, presentation to the Year Ones on Wednesday, Bacomm Recruitment Drive performance from Wed to Friday and Teengames with NPU on Saturday!:DDDDD

I'll update about NPU soon! They're really fun people!(Y)

Gotta bake bake bake tmr and Tuesday for Wednesday! I have to plan my time wisely esp for this week with all my plans and projects coming up! :D Well, have to bear in mind not to neglect spending time with God in the process(:

Children's Camp Music Centre practice was quite productive today! Selected songs for the different age groups and we've finalised the actions for the theme song! HAHA! I figured that I should start appreciating and remind myself of all the blessings God has given me. It makes everything seem easier that way and the things of earth do grow strangely dim as I turn my eyes upon Jesus♥

I've promised to trust and so, I will.

Tis So Sweet to Trust In Jesus ♥

2010-04-20T03:12:00.000-07:00

Figured that I should blog before my list of things to blog about gets longer and longer!

Updates about what I've been doing!

Just a few days back, after lunching with Wenxin, we headed to the ' NEWLY' open Ice-Skating Club booth! Check it out.

Yeah, they claim that it's the most expensive booth ever. HAHA! I must say that it's pretty cool!

Okay, weilian should totally buy me a drink for promoting his CCA okay! After all the making fun of me having a naturally loud voice, I was still a valuable asset to them(: HAHA!

So it's the first week of school and I went out with Nana on monday! Went to Cathay for Astons and their food portion decreased since the last time I went with ZHZH! Hur, we ordered a second round! Ain't going back there any time soon! Check out a picture I took of Na!:D HAA.

Following are the pictures taken on my last day of work):

I miss working with Winnie): Those gossip sessions, slacking moments and of course, those adorable kids D:

It's okay, I'll have more kids from children's camp and babies from envoys(:

So anyway, after the working, it was Rachel's party at night! It was held at Re Hotel and the theme was set as Back To The 80s! The guys looked super cute tgth! Pictures are up on Facebook.com!

Aztecs Outing 2 weeks back was held at Marina Barrage and the weather was so hot with the stupid scorching sun! Okay, but we had lotsa fun cam-whoring:D

Ha, boysssssssss!

Went to Marina Square for dinner and arcade! You should really check fb out for their retarded videos. HAHA!

OH OH! I think he looks like Shaun Chen!!

I'm the worst player ever, srsly. HAH.

Yup, those were really short updates of events & activites since the last post! Missed out a few here and there but I'll mention it soon!:D

So first week of school has been great, I'm loving it. The Guardian As have been busy running about campus for our future babies!:D Tiring but I guess we enjoyed it!

School's gonna get real busy, starting from next week with Recruitment Drives, tutorials and projects coming in! I wanted to list all the commitments I have but I didn't really wanna think about them. I've been quite stressed and I don't even know what I'm stressed over in specific cause there are just so many things that I've been worried about. I realised that I can get easily anxious and I suppose that it's a bad sign cause that shows a lack of trust in God to a certain extent. I admit that I can't afford to do badly in my studies and sometimes, I can just get so obsessed with wanting to do well. I find myself so contradicting at times. I keep telling my youths to constantly think about the greater goal in life and to choose the ways of God rather than the ways of the world but I'm not being an excellent role model. But I'm trying, I really am. I've been praying about all those burdens and it's really amazing how the peace of God can be comforting. Thank God for reminding me that there is a reason for everything that has happened and for everything that is going to happen. AND! The best part is, my path has already been set by Him and I know that everything's gonna be alright ♥ I should pray more often! Prayers really work wonders!(:

Alright! I'll continue tomorrow! Time to sleep to stay awake for tmr's sermon!:D

If I'm not that lazy

2010-04-17T09:46:00.000-07:00

There'll be lots and lots of updates coming right up! :D

BAOC Day 2 & 3

2010-04-09T23:49:00.000-07:00

Back to update about the second and third day of BAOC!

On the second day, I was really glad to see so many freshies from my group cause I expected fewer people than that. It was a day filled with games and thankfully, my promise to the freshies was kept:D Could see that those freshies enjoyed it so much more than then first!

They played station games and one of them was this semi Dog&Bone + Basketball!

My freshie got elbowed by someone from the opposing team and boy, those Mayans were so barbaric, HUR.

But it's okay, PEACE right?(:

Played another team bonding game and the guys looked kinda gay.

HAHAHAH!

Took many..

many...

....many many pictures!(:

The freshies stayed back to rehearse for their performance and they stayed backed till late! They were really enthusiastic and serious about it. *ONE CLAP!*

Aww.

On the third day morning, Xinyi, Rachel, Mad, Liyana and I went to the CC to help the mascots to get dressed! While the other groups' mascots didn't have anyone to help the out, Aztecs had 5 assistants with them. They really looked like tribal chief and princess please.

If you turn your attention to my following photo, LUCAS won the BEST MALE MASCOT thanks to MY 6 PECS! HAHAH! *Hint hint!:D

Yup, and it's pictures again!

And so, it's time to say goodbye):

Cleaning up with a few peeps, Kristin and OMG, SAMUEL! HAHA! I have a totally different impression of him now. He's cool. HAHA!(:

Went to play pool with the Aztecs!

So here's to the winning team, awesome♥

I'm already missing them.

BAOC Day 1

2010-04-07T08:37:00.000-07:00

It was the first day of BAOC yesterday and the Usuals stayed over Wen Xin's place the night before!(:

My alarm was set at 6am and I was the first to bathe(: The guys took forever to even wake up and to style their hair, I HAVE THE EVIDENCE. Haha! Yeah, and soooooooooooo, we ended up rushing at the very last minute and we were, hmm, not THAT late, right? (:

Okay! First up! We headed to the bus stop to meet those Freshies! :D I remember how I felt back then, I was soooo afraid that I wouldn't be able to make any friends! But I thank God that my short phrase landed me a group of awesome friends, the Kedongdongs(: ANYWAY, HAPPY ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY DONGS! AS OF TODAY, WE'VE KNOWN EACH OTHER FOR A YEAR!(: ♥!

Back to the topic, yeah, met those Freshies(: They were very VERY shy and quiet, even after the icebreakers, cheers and the first day's activities! But yknow, I was really touched by a few of them on the first day; by those who have volunteered their time to be put into rehearsals for the performance on the final showdown! My subgroup had the most performers! Haha, I'm gonna show off a little(: I have 5 performers & 1 mascot! :D On a side note, those 4 girls are really sweet♥

Alright, here are some pictures from BAOC day 1(:

This is a little retarded. Xinyi, Rach and I were so thirsty but didn't have our water bottle with us, neither could we have gone to the water cooler cause there wasn't one around. HAHA! We ended up hiding ourselves in the toilet and drinking from the tap.

Lepak time

HAHA! This is sick! We had our first performance practice and they were writing down the actions of one of the three dances for the freshies to copy down and practice on their own! One of them said, " SQUEEZE YOUR BOOBS". HAHA! HEY HEY HEY, WHAT ARE YOU THINKING NOW?! HAHA! Tsk!

Alright, that's all for day one.

I'm tired after the second day! My Aztecs were awesome ttm X 100000 to the gurdugar, dumo!(:

Updates on the second & third day will be up soon, reallyyyy soon! (: HAHA!

Nana's home!

2010-04-06T07:58:00.000-07:00

After 1 whole month, Nana's finally back from her holiday!:DDD

She & Ad came over to my place for dinner on Sunday!

Went down to take a few picturessss! You've got to see Nana's expressions!

Blessings outpour

2010-03-22T09:16:00.000-07:00

I have many things to thank God for:D Indeed, I have been richly blessed by Him. I've been so worried for the past few weeks about many things- Exco selection, last sem's results, YFMu, next sem's class timetable, etc. I was pretty discouraged by many things but just these 2 weeks, God's blessings just kept on flowing.

I got into the Exco but I didn't get what I wanted. Still, I believe that God has a reason for it and I'm happy with that. My results came in on Friday morning and I fared better than the previous sem- just a little but I'm satisfied. OH OH, just to reveal a little, I GOT A B+ FOR MY ITB! HAHA! It's quite an achievement for someone like me okay!:D My first YFMu practice was pretty good, considering that that was the first time everyone came together to play something! Serving isn't easy at all. I guess it's not so much of the time and sacrifices that have to be made but more of the discouragements faced. I'm more people-oriented I guess. I'm still learning but I'm starting to love this new thing I'm doing and the team:D

I've decided to join the same class as my ZHZH! (: I'm gonna stick to Marcus like glue. HAH!

BTW, NANA LEE IS STILL IN MALAYSIA and she'll only be back on the 29th-.- Idiot, I have no one to complain and whine to. HAHA. Hurry get your ass back here, I have lots of stories to update you about!

I'm really glad that I have God.

2010-03-17T09:38:00.000-07:00

Okay... NANA!!!!!

2010-03-12T10:25:00.000-08:00

This is gonna be a really short one!

Met Nana and Ad in the cab on the way to Bugis. Shopped a little, caught a movie and we rushed to Jessica's Salvo Concert at TP after that! Not bad at all! Those drummers looked so intimidating! Took a picture and we left cause she had to pack up! Supper-ed at some food court near Tampines and I had to rush home to prepare for tomorrow's meeting!

I'm starting work tmr at GENIUS ARE US! From 930 till 12! CG after that before my YFMu meeting! Busy busy! Gotta sleep now! Need my energy for those little ones! :DDD

Night!

All is well(:

2010-03-11T08:28:00.000-08:00

I'm so happy that my schedule was packed for the last few weeks! HAHA! I've been seeing a lot of the Kdds because of the camp and baoc! :D TAN WEN XIN! You've disappeared for like, forever! HAHA! Happy 3 months anniversary to you and HUNG! :DDD Girls' day on monday, can't wait! ♥!

Havn't been seeing Nana Lee cause someone decided to live in isolation! Meeting her tmr! AT LONG LAST! Jessica's performing tmr and we'll be heading down to TP to support her!(:

I've been working for Aspire for two days at Loyang Secondary School with Crystal and Cherie. We were the Assistant coaches for the motivational talk. I had to wake up at 415 on the first day and 430 on the second. Almost died! It was all the way at the other end of Singapore! Possibly worse than Yishunnn!! HAHA! But but but! I enjoyed my work! Those sec 4/5 kiddos were soooo cute! Sure they misbehaved but most of them were really sweet! OHHH! They love my hair. HAHA! One guy went, " Teacher, teacher! Why your hair one side long, one side short one ah? YOU ROCKER AH? YOU ROCKER RIGHTT!!! Eh eh, you look at her, she's a rocker eh. Wahhh." HAHA! I was umchioing lahhh, super cute. HAHA! I really hope that they'll do well for their O's. I may be their senior at year 3! HAHA!

I had training today! WHOOHOO! I like trainings! Isham said that our training sessions are gonna be tougher and more competitive since teengames is coming up! He said that we're fine, but I really think he was just trying to make us feel better. HAHA! Oh wells! Anything but suicides or whatever that is related to sprinting and I should be able to survive. HAHA! We're getting jerseys and socks! JACKETS TOO PLEASE PLEASE PLEASEEEEEEE?! :DDDDD

I'm tired, sweet dreams♥

Leadership Camp

2010-03-08T08:53:00.000-08:00

Yup, I survived the leadership camp and I'm extremely proud of myself that I didn't even thought of giving up! Everybody give me one clap! *CLAP* Thanks(:

So anyway, judging from what the ex-cos expected, I doubt I can really make it. Everyone gave different comments in regards to my actions and the way I should behave. For a moment, it got really confusing cause I absolutely didn't have any clue on what exactly should be done to prove something. Well, I guess everyone has different perception of things and you really can't please every single one of them. Who is to judge how a leader should behave? I'm not lying when I say that it's okay if I really didn't manage to secure a position cause I've prayed really hard about it and I'm leaving it up to Him(: Like I've said, there must be a purpose for everything. GP4U:D Sure I'll feel sore for an hour or so but at least the camp has been an enriching experience for me(: For one, I met my really cool WANNABES :DDDDD

LOW WEI LIAN, ONE THING I HATE ABOUT YOU IS YOUR UGLY FACE. Why?! Think this a fun camp ah?! Go home la! The door is just there!

HAH!

2010-03-05T08:20:00.000-08:00

Why must they be the ones):

The Usuals.

2010-03-04T22:04:00.000-08:00

This may be a delayed post but... EXAMS ARE OVER!! HAHA!

Okay, shall post a short one about our after-exams celebrations(:

The girls ended on Thursday and we went to hang at town. Watched Valentine's day. Kinda shallow but still alright for a whole group of girls to watch. At least I went, "OMG, he's so cuteeeee!" when Taylor Lautner appeared:DDD

Met the guys on Friday after their paper ended. Had a gathering at Mad's place at YISHUN! YES, at the other end of Singapore, gosh. Thank God I had a direct bus there! (: Our dress code for that day was "Cui" but prior to the meeting day, JACK HUNG said no-_- HAHA! Girls ended up following that code and that explains why we look... unappealing. HAHA! Yup, yknow what, I'm really lazy to elaborate and all, here goes the pictures(:

The guys were really engrossed with their Mahjong! Look at Dumo.

Sidetracking a little, I really felt like strangling that neck of his, back in leadership camp okay! Tsk.

Hah!

And so, the girls ended up camwhoringggg!

Group Pictures!

OH OH! Ryan's way of saying bye!

Check the Guys out. HAHA.

Yeah. The girls had a mini trashout session. May sound a little too old school but I guess it was needed since we're just getting closer as a whole group. I'm pretty glad that we could really be honest as a whole group.

There may be changes here and there but I really hope that the Usuals will still stay, somehow.

2010-02-14T05:28:00.000-08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR & VALENTINE'S DAY(:

Okay, I bet everyone's writing this everywhere, HAH!

I'm back to update peeps! It was the start of study week on Monday and I've been seeing Nana almost everyday! And every time we were supposed to shop, we ended up spending lots of $$$ on..... FOOODDDDD! Anyway, I WANNA COMPLAIN! NANA LEE, YOU STUPID ASS, PS-ED ME ON SATURDAY. HUR! You better thank God that He has made me so forgiving towards you! HAHA!

I love people-watching, those strangers make me think about things yknow. I may blog about it when I'm free again! Time to watch a movie! Tata!(:

I kinda miss those old times.

I have a smile.

2010-02-02T19:41:00.000-08:00

I just finished my Bcomm presentation and I'm feeling really happy.

I BAKED!:DDDD

Thank God everything went well even though I was feeling nervous.

Sermon preached on Sunday spoke a little to me regarding the issue on Forgiveness.

It's not easy being a Christian but I'm really trying.

Putting that aside,

I am feeling happy today(:

2010-01-30T19:45:00.000-08:00

Reach out to the sky, everything's gonna be alright:D

You'll see

2010-01-27T03:52:00.001-08:00

“There was a law of life so cruel and so just, that one must grow or else pay more for remaining the same."

Silent soul

2010-01-26T06:56:00.000-08:00

Guess there are only a few to know.

It's never wrong to protect yourself.

Don't be quick to judge.

The love of buds!

2010-01-24T17:33:00.000-08:00

YAYYYYY! Pictures from my 2nd Buddies celebration are out!

Went to Jessica's place to cook a meal!

I made Lemon chicken and Dessert!:DDDD

A dagger behind the smile(: HEH HEH HEH!

SLAUGHTERED!!!

Marinating..

FRYING! Okay, I don't really have the picture of the final product.

Heh. I can make it for you! Just beg me(;

Yum.

♥

Plastic

2010-01-22T08:33:00.000-08:00

People should really learn how to clarify before making assumptions.
I gave up on explaining or even defending myself.

Lately, it seems as though everything doesn't make sense anymore.
Bad things just never stop happening.

I'm too preoccupied to think of other things.
It really doesn't matter how things are like now.
I'm really still the same.

Take that

2010-01-21T23:53:00.000-08:00

Chasing the seconds

2010-01-19T08:41:00.000-08:00

Class was cancelled today cause Captain Andrew was feeling under the weather. Pretty surprising cause he's always so lively and active with his "SHALOM!", "GREETINGS!" and "AHOY!". HAHA! Hope he gets well soon! It's kinda enjoyable with him around- failed to realise that until now. Will learn to appreciate him more in future:D

So anyway, I made my way to school just for training and at 545, they said that training was cancelled as well. I was really looking forward to training yknow. Kinda feeling stressed over my pile of work that I have yet to catch up with due to the previous two test. Missed quite a few lectures and I'm having a tough time coping. To add on, there are so many projects, some that are half completed and some which we've not even started on yet.

Sometimes, you can only pray for good project mates cause things get tougher when you get project mates who don't do their part at all. They just sit back to get whatever credit for the amount of work that you've put in. Once you get such project mates, you can only pray for patience and endurance. It's especially important for me cause sometimes, it can be really hard for me to hide my exasperation and frustration. It'll seem as though I can flare up any second. I guess I'm just too serious about my work. Or maybe too serious, for a fact. But hey, on the other hand, when you get good project mates, you can really go on your knees and thank God for His mercy. Hah.

Yeah, so like I've said, I was really looking forward to training! Wanted to just forget about work for a few hours and just have lots of fun, doing something that I love. But yeah, that'll have to wait for next week.

And so, I made my way back home. I felt so uneasy, maybe a feeling of guilt? I felt like I've wasted 2 hours of travelling time for nothing. Thought about how the time could have been put to better use and how much work I could have completed. On top of that, the waiting time was adding on to the list of 'wasted time'. Everything just didn't seem to be going my way. It took me quite a while to convince myself that all is fine.

Today was a really bad day.